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First post on the new hosting site!

With the move from Livejournal to Dreamwidth, it prompted me to update...I was late to post for last year anyways, so...

Things I learned this year
1. I learned that sometimes, the bad guys win, the world isn't as nice as you thought, the ghosts of the past didn't die (they just hid long enough to be forgotten about), and that people you treat as friends are sometimes nowhere near that status.
2. I also learned that your friends will moderate their belief systems (or at least not bring them up) to stay your friends.

People I met
1. The SCA continues to give me new friends every year; being a Territorial Baron since 2013 has allowed me to make new friends all over the southeastern US and throughout the country - but all of that ends on 4/28/17!
2. I met more new friends outside of my state and continue to widen my range of connections.

Things I don't want to take with me into 2017
1. Still...frustration and impatience over incomplete projects, relationships or goals.
2. A lingering apathy toward people in general; I notice that I'm growing curmudgeonly and I don't need that.

Things I want to hold close as I pass into 2017
1. My continually strong relationships with my spouse, my family (both blood and chosen) and hundreds of friends and acquaintances.
2. My currently stable but threatened economic stability...thanks to the incoming Administration.

Things I'm looking forward to in 2017
1. Right now there's a lot of clouds forming for everyone, so let's just get through the year.
2. Finishing my last full year as a Landed Baron and celebrating the freedom afterwards.

Things that were life changing in 2016
1. Enjoying the adventure with Denise of being the Baron & Baroness of Oldenfeld and being comfortable as the senior Landed Nobility for a while.
2. Becoming a grandparent again to Elise Flesher, Sophia's little sister and daughter of Logan and Jasmine!
3. Becoming acquainted with many of the elite rapier fighters in the neighboring Kingdoms outside of Trimaris

Things you hope to accomplish by the end of 2017
1. As always, to reduce my total debt from where it was last year; yes, it's always a good goal to have, even if we're not actually getting to it!
2. Maintaining all other facets of my life as they are or better, because I am still *very* blessed to have very little to complain about - still!

Your biggest accomplishment in 2016?
I had an exceptional day as a fighter at Castle Wars in Meridies; I spent the day being consistently second to an Atlantian MoD, which is not a bad thing!

Your biggest failure in 2016?
1. I feel that my overall level of debt keeps changing shape, but it's really not getting any smaller.

What is one fear you’d like to overcome in 2016?
Since roaches are always at the top of this category, I don't ever see myself getting OK with them...ever.

Are you going to make any major changes to your blog for 2017?
Not likely...

What is one new thing you’d like to learn this coming Year?
I'd like to cross-train into all of the other armored disciplines; it's been over a decade and I need to get it officially done, finally.

If you could do ONE thing this year and NOT get chastised by, or for it, what would you do?
This question is silly; I'm going to drop it for future years.

Name a GOOD habit you’d like to start in 2017.
To get back into the good exercise habits that I started last year and get back to my peak weight and better fitness!
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I'm sorry that your government took an interest in your activities, Livejournal; maybe if the greater Russia region wasn't so homophobic, backward, and culturally a generation behind the rest of the world, you wouldn't be ruled by a continuing chain of despots and tyrants.

Good luck you all of you; sorry about the imminent failure of your new business.
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As I predicted a couple years ago, it's been two years since my last entry - my, how time flies...

I'll recap 2014 and 2015 together, since they contain mostly similar events and themes.

Things I learned this year
1. I learned that youth is not lost because you get older; it is lost because you let it go...you let it go because of many possible reasons (medical, mental, physical, outside influence or people, or just becoming jaded), but the loss is your fault, no one else's.
2. I learned that your friends harbor a wide variety of ideals, opinions, and beliefs...and that your friends will still be your friends despite what they are and regardless of if theirs match yours.

People I met
1. The SCA continues to give me new friends with each passing year; being a Territorial Baron since 2013 has allowed me to make new friends all over the southeastern US and throughout the country.
2. I met a person I thought that I would never meet...a unicorn among mere humans.

Things I don't want to take with me into 2016
1. Frustration and impatience over incomplete projects, relationships or goals.
2. Anything resembling a 'diva' attitude or the change of outlook that happens at the top of a social group.

Things I want to hold close as I pass into 2016
1. My continually strong relationships with my spouse, my children, my in-laws, and hundreds of friends.
2. Still growing economic stability...

Things I'm looking forward to in 2016
1. Building a stable, long-term relationship into a permanent one and keeping it that way.
2. Completing a fulfilling journey and finishing my last full year as a Landed Baron.

Things that were life changing in 2014-15
1. Growing into a companion of the Order of The White Scarf and working among the more active members of the Order and the rapier community.
2. Enjoying the adventure with Denise of being the Baron & Baroness of Oldenfeld.
3. Becoming a grandparent to Sophia, daughter of Logan and Jasmine Flesher!

Things you hope to accomplish by the end of 2016
1. To reduce my total debt by 25% or more from where it was last year; yes, it's always a good goal to have, even if we're not actually getting to it...
2. Maintaining all other facets of my life as they are or better, because I am still blessed to have very little to complain about - still!

Your biggest accomplishment in 2014-15?
Fighting in my second and third Gulf Wars Champion's Tournament as a Don; I won my second and lost my third, leaving me at 1-2 overall.

Your biggest failure in 2014-15?
1. I feel that Mathew has gotten less material/financial support than his sisters did leaving high school; however, being as smart, wise, and industrious as he is, he's built himself a better start nonetheless, out of sheer will.
2. I've failed to build any significant momentum of the diet/exercise regimen that I've been following; while I'm not gaining any weight past my all-time high, I keep getting back the 5-10 lbs. that I manage to lose at a time.

What is one fear you’d like to overcome in 2016?
Since roaches are always at the top, I don't ever see myself getting OK with them.

Are you going to make any major changes to your blog for 2016?
Not likely. My next post will probably be for new year 2017.

What is one new thing you’d like to learn this coming Year?
I'd like to learn combat archery, if I can afford it.

If you could do ONE thing this year and NOT get chastised by, or for it, what would you do?
As I've mentioned before, it's not about being chastised...it's about managing the fallout.

Name a GOOD habit you’d like to start in 2016.
To regain the good exercise habits that I started last year and get back to my peak weight and better fitness.
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I haven't logged into this account in a couple years; sorry if you saw spam on my journal.

~ Marc
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Having updated the past few years with vague recollections, I can now focus on more recent, bigger things, in greater detail. I'll try to do well, since I may not post again in several years - if at all...

Things I learned this year
1. I learned that reaching a certain level of respect, visibility and/or importance in a community will gain you opponents and/or enemies even if you've done nothing different or new to precipitate it.
2. I learned that aging happens in your attitudes and outlook, not just your body; you have opinions, preferences and habits that you wouldn't expect to have when you were younger.

People I met
1. The SCA continues to give me access to dozens, if not hundreds, of new friends every year; this year was no different - stepping up as a Territorial Baron only accelerated the number of people that I meet!

Things I don't want to take with me into 2014
1. Incomplete and misguided notions of hypothetical relationships and possibilities.
2. Frustration and impatience over incomplete projects, relationships or goals

Things I want to hold close as I pass into 2014
1. My still continually strong relationships with my spouse, my children, my in-laws, and all of my literally hundreds of friends.
2. Still growing economic stability...

Things I'm looking forward to in 2014
1. Continued professional growth.
2. Hopefully building a relationship or two into solid long term ones.

Things that were life changing in 2013
1. Being added to the Order of The White Scarf in recognition of my reaching the top of my art in rapier combat.
2. Being invested along with my wife as Baron & Baroness of Oldenfeld.
3. Leaving my employment with the State of FL and returning to the private sector as an experienced Network Admin.
4. Taking on the task of being the Kingdom Deputy Earl Marshal for Siege.

Things you hope to accomplish by the end of 2014
1. To reduce my total debt by 50% or more from where it was last year; yes, it's always a good goal to have!
2. Maintaining all other facets of my life as they are or better, because I am still blessed to have very little to complain about - still!

Your biggest accomplishment in 2013?
Fighting in my first Gulf Wars Champion's Tournament - as a Don, even; next goal - to win.

Your biggest failure in 2013?
1. I feel badly that Jasmine's post-high school transition to adulthood was as rocky as it was; I'm glad that it all worked out, though.
2. I completely fell off of the diet/exercise regimen that I started up with in 2013; the results are obvious.

What is one fear you’d like to overcome in 2010?
Fear of roaches. Still. I can always hold on to hope.

Are you going to make any major changes to your blog for 2014?
Unlikely. My next post will likely be be for new year 2015.

What is one new thing you’d like to learn this coming Year?
I'd like to learn combat archery, if I can afford it.

If you could do ONE thing this year and NOT get chastised by, or for it, what would you do?
As I've mentioned before, it's not about being chastised. It's about everything afterwards.

Name a GOOD habit you’d like to start in 2014.
To regain the good exercise habits that I started last year and get back to my peak weight and better fitness.
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Referencing one of the older posts from 2006, my life has been stable, productive and blessed with friends, family and prosperity, in measured increments enough for me to not have made a single post on here in three years. In the context that this blog is the safety valve of my fevered mind and dark half, this is a good thing.

I haven't summed up the last few years mostly because they've been very similar; however, in the spirit of continuity (and OCD), I'll sum them up in a single post so I can move on to summing up 2013.

The years that were 2010-2012

Things I learned
1. I learned how to fence. Not sport fence, but actual swordfighting - known as "historical combat" these days. I've gotten quite good at it...enough to have risen to the top 10 active fencers in Trimaris, my SCA Kingdom. It was precipitated by an Achille's Tendon tear in 7/2009, which forced me to drop armored combat for most activities except at War.

People I met
1. I finally got to meet someone I've known for a long time in person, and it went about as good as was expected; one of us will be at the other's funeral, I'm sure.
2. In the SCA I've continued to meet and make new friends all over the state and the country; if the SCA had a strongest reason to be in it, it would be this. There are too many people to list individually.

Things I don't want to take with me into 2013
1. Like in any year, I don't wish to carry any lingering drama related to people; I find that I'm getting better at it, fortunately.

Things I want to hold close as I pass into 2013
1. My continually strong relationships with my spouse, my children and my friends.
2. Still growing economic stability. I'm very pleased that this is a stable trend...

Things I'm looking forward to in 2013
1. Completing a long arduous climb back into the Middle Class that began more than eight years ago.

Things that were life changing in 2010-2012
1. Healing from an aforementioned lightning strike of a relationship and growing in leaps from the necessary introspection; the process wasn't smooth or painless, but I was amazed at the capacity I had to adjust my lens upon the world.
2. Interacting with all of my children as adults, rather than as kids or teens; it really is a big deal.

Things you hope to accomplish by the end of 2012
1. To reduce my total debt by 50% from where it was last year; yes, it's still a goal, because new expenses are a fact of life when maintaining a family with 3 kids who are grown but not yet part of the workforce in a serious way.
2. Maintaining my general level of happiness, because I am still blessed to have very little to complain about overall.

Your biggest accomplishment?
Winning my first rapier tournament - the non-scarf tourney at War of the Wings, in Atlantia, Nov. 2012.

Your biggest failure?
I wouldn't consider my biggest failure an actual failure; a lost opportunity or a prudent decision, perhaps, but not a failure. Besides, something can't fail if it never started.

What is one fear you’d like to overcome in 2010?
Fear of roaches. Still... It might not ever happen.

Are you going to make any major changes to your blog for 2013?
Considering how Facebook handles day-to-day stuff, I may only post on here once per year from now on.

What is one new thing you’d like to learn this coming Year?
In the SCA there are always many things to learn - why limit yourself to one?

If you could do ONE thing this year and NOT get chastised by, or for it, what would you do?
It's not the being chastised part that stops me... It's far worse.

If you could really, and actually, meet one blogger in 2007, who would you want to meet?
I think that this has become an obsolete question, so I'm dropping it.

Name a GOOD habit you’d like to start in 2013.
To exercise more.
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Has it been *more than a year* since I last posted? How time flies... I'm actually several months late on my observations over the last year, so here goes.

As I mentioned over a year ago, I'm an impulsively intermittent blogger and if the mood doesn't strike, I've been known to go this long without a post.


Things I learned this year
1. I learned how to reverse-engineer a Roman Cheiroballista (a rock-throwing crossbow about 10 feet long) and have built a clone of one that I have on loan.
2. Despite what years of esteem damage have ingrained into my brain, I actually may *not* be too old, ugly or shy to be attractive to the opposite sex; this is a very cool concept that gives me a lot of confidence in social situations.

People I met
1. I've made several very special friends, with whom the relationship grew faster than I've seen before - not that this was bad, it was just different and a surprisingly refreshing change of tone in the way I've interacted with people in the past. But with the "jump with both feet" attitude when meeting people, I've also been burned a couple times... I've found that this is a fair trade.

Things I don't want to take with me into 2010
1. Any lingering drama that might relate to anything from 2009; I try to not have any loose ends and I'm not about to start
2. Frustration over incomplete projects, relationships or goals

Things I want to hold close as I pass into 2010
1. My continually strong relationships with my spouse, my children and my friends.
2. Still growing economic stability.

Things I'm looking forward to in 2010
1. A continuation of the gradual crawl back into the Middle Class that began more than six years ago; slowly getting there!.
2. Building a new relationship or two into solid long term ones.

Things that were life changing in 2009
1. Meeting someone new and experiencing a lightning bolt that was our relationship, for all of a week.
2. Sending my oldest child out of the nest and watching her fly on her own for the first time...

Things you hope to accomplish by the end of 2010
1. To reduce my total debt by 50% from where it was last year; yes, it's still a goal.
2. Maintaining all other facets of my life as they are or better, because I am still blessed to have very little to complain about - still!

Your biggest accomplishment in 2009?
Receiving a Kingdom-level award for fighting, of all things...and then getting a Barony level one as well!

Your biggest failure in 2009?
I can no longer claim to have a perfect record in having never dumped a woman in my life; I feel so average now :-/

What is one fear you’d like to overcome in 2010?
Fear of roaches. Still.

Are you going to make any major changes to your blog for 2010?
Considering how little I post at all, it will be to post more...still.

What is one new thing you’d like to learn this coming Year?
How to make parchment, still (I was distracted by the siege engine project); I'd like to learn how to fight heavy and not lose 50% of the time (but I'm getting better!).

If you could do ONE thing this year and NOT get chastised by, or for it, what would you do?
I might not get chastised for it, but since the reaction might be worse, I'll just drop it.

If you could really, and actually, meet one blogger in 2007, who would you want to meet?
All the bloggers I know and still follow, I know in person, so there's no need.

Name a GOOD habit you’d like to start in 2010.
To keep flossing - perhaps to be more consistent at it.
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Sorry that I haven't posted here in over a year; I'm an impulsive intermittent blogger and if the mood doesn't strike, I've been known to go a year without a post.

Repeating my New Year's post from 2007, these are my thoughts of 2008 - now that it's 75% over:

Things I learned this year
1. I learned how to sew from a pattern and how to make cheese from scratch!
2. Even if you are unaware of it, or don't think that people are watching you...they are. Conversation about you goes on outside of your sphere of awareness, frequently.

People I met
1. A few new friends, some of which have lasted, some who haven't; some were online, some were not.

Things I don't want to take with me into 2009
1. The manifestations I'm seeing of the aging process...
2. Frustration over unresolved wishes.

Things I want to hold close as I pass into 2009
1. My strong relationships with my spouse, children and friends.
2. Growing economic stability.

Things I'm looking forward to in 2009
1. A continuation of the gradual crawl back into the Middle Class that began more than five years ago.
2. Building a new relationship or two into solid ones.

Things that were life changing in 2008
1. Finding and exchanging emails with the first girl I ever liked in my life, 27 years later.
2. Watching my child become an adult.

Things you hope to accomplish by the end of 2009
1. To reduce my total debt by 50% from where it was last year.
2. Maintaining all other factets of my life as they are or better, because I am still blessed to have very little to complain about.

Your biggest accomplishment in 2008?
Completing my tenure in two Barony offices without any stumbles to mention; getting my nose fixed...finally.

Your biggest failure in 2008?
Complacency; I fell into a comfortable pattern, which bred sloth - which I abhor.

What is one fear you’d like to overcome in 2009?
Fear of roaches. Still.

Are you going to make any major changes to your blog for 2009?
Given my tendency to post about once per year, if I make any changes at all, it will be to blog more...still.

What is one new thing you’d like to learn this coming Year?
How to make parchment from rawhides; I'd like to learn how to fight heavy and not lose 99% of the time.

If you could do ONE thing this year and NOT get chastised by, or for it, what would you do?
I would take a month off of work and catch up on each and every chore, project and hobby queued up in my head.

If you could really, and actually, meet one blogger in 2007, who would you want to meet?
I would want to meet 'bslawgirl'@blogspot, because everyone else I know in the blogging world I also know in person.

Name a GOOD habit you’d like to start in 2007.
To keep flossing - perhaps to be more consistent at it.
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I've got one of those feelings...like something bad is about to happen.

I'm restless, yet at the same time I'm not motivated to take up an activity for the evening.

I'm grateful for the presence of my family, that slumbers in the surrounding rooms; if I were single, I'd be out on the streets, looking for some kind of trouble to get into.

Denise and the kids ahev truly saved my life; I have no doubt in my mind that if I had spent my life alone, I would be in prison by now and I would have nothing to show for myself.

I should go to bed and start a new day tomorrow; maybe I'm just tired and cranky.
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I regret never having gotten into any of Henry Rollins' past material...


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...as lifted from 'thisgirliknow'

Meme 1

The categories:
Things you learned this year
People you met
Things you don't want to take with you into 2007
Things you want to hold close as you pass into 2007
Things you're looking forward to in 2007
Things that were life changing in 2006
Things you hope to accomplish by the end of 2007

Now you can either give two answers for each category OR you can choose two from that list and give seven answers

Things I learned this year
1. The perception that others have of you is not always parallel to the one you have of yourself.
2. As you get older, politics is inevitable, even within in a small group of people - three would be the minimum.

People I met
1. Several exemplary SCAdians outside of Tallahassee and several more out-of-state.
2. A couple of new online friends

Things I don't want to take with me into 2007
1. My feelings of restlessness that I'm interpreting as mid-life crisis (for lack of a better diagnosis)
2. My growing loss of patience with other people's behaviors

Things I want to hold close as I pass into 2007
1. My willingness to volunteer into new things for the sake of personal growth
2. My family and friends

Things I'm looking forward to in 2007
1. A continuation of the gradual crawl back into the Middle Class that began more than three years ago.
2. The discovery of a new relationship and the sense of magic that it brings

Things that were life changing in 2006
1. The loss of an old friend
2. The end of a relationship that I thought would be lifelong

Things you hope to accomplish by the end of 2007
1. To reduce my total debt by 50%
2. Maintaining all other factets of my life as they are or better, because I am blessed to have little to complain about



Meme 2

1. Your biggest accomplishment in 2006?
earning my Cisco CCSP certification, which greatly enhances my career marketability

2. Your biggest failure in 2006?
Losing a longtime friend to a trivial issue that was built up into some kind of horrifying personal betrayal

3. What is one fear you’d like to overcome in 2007?
Fear of roaches.

4. What is one resolution you’d REALLY like to keep?
I don't make any. They limit your goal-making and are rarely kept for long, anyways.

5. Are you going to make any major changes to your blog for 2007?
I'm not a blogger by habit, so if I make any changes at all, it will be to blog more.

6. Any blogging resolutions?
See above.

7. What is one new thing you’d like to learn this coming Year?
How to sew clothing from a pattern; how to make parchment from rawhides.

8. If you could do ONE thing this New Year and NOT get chastised by, or for it, what would you do?
I would really press my ex for a full explanation - if anything, it would satisfy my curiosity and provide closure.

9. If you could really, and actually, meet one blogger in 2007, who would you want to meet?
I would want to meet thisgirliknow, because everyone else I know in LJ I also know in person.

10. Name a GOOD habit you’d like to start in 2007.
Flossing.
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The Devoted Lover
63% partner focus, 33% aggressiveness, 45% adventurousness
Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to be traditional rather than daring or out-of-the-ordinary, you would rather be pursued than do the pursuing and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Devoted Lover.

The Devoted Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and is perhaps the best Lover Style when it comes to developing a long-term, caring and rewarding relationship. The Devoted Lover is a treasure to find, though it is sometimes difficult to time establishing a relationship with one just right; usually, this is the last romantic relationship you'll need to find, so sow any wild oats first.

In terms of physical love, the Devoted Lover can be shy at first but gradually warms and eventually can be a thrilling partner who knows every need of his/her partner. Given a strong and loving relationship, and the right lover, the Devoted Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Suave Lover (most of all) or the Classic Lover, or the Carnal Lover.

Congratulations!

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following:

Nerds, Geeks & Dorks

Professional Wrestling

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

America/Politics

Thanks Again! -- THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST




My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:


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You scored higher than 26% on adventurousness
Link: The Lover Style Profile Test written by donathos on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test
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If you get more than 30 you're paranoid.
If you get 21 to 29 you're normal.
If you get 11 to 20 you are pretty normal.
If you get 10 or less you're fearless.

Everyone fears something... it's probably on this list.

I Fear...
[ ] mirrors
[ ] gay people
[ ] the dark
[ ] being single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] black cats
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] ants
[ ] driving
[ ] flying
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] dark water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends mom
[ ] mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cotton balls
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] Heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] diseases
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] shots
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] being blind
[x] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] getting old
[ ] monsters under my bed
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] blood/blood being drawn
[x] someone you love or care about getting hurt
[x] someone you love or care about hurting you
[ ] love
[ ] Spiders
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My score on The Brutally Honest Personality Test:


Prick- ENTP
(60% Extraversion, 66% Intuition, 60% Thinking, 46% Judging)



People love to hate you, because you love to argue. The strange thing is you probably took that as a compliment. Why, I bet you've already got a witty comeback all lined up ready to throw right back at me.

What you don't realise is that your inane obsession with debating pisses everyone off. Whatever happened to us all trying to get alone? I mean, you're so annoying people disagree with you for the damn sake of it! NOBODY cares about your abundant opinions. Trust me.

Believe it or not, but there's more to life than your expansive knowledge and sharp repertoire. When was the last time you showered? Brushed your teeth?

While you're up in Nevernever land, getting excited over future possibilities and your crazy theories, WE have to put up with your awful stench. I can smell you from here.

Your personality is ideal for that of a future lawyer and because everyone already hates you, you have nothing to lose.

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If you want to learn more about your personality type in a slightly less negative way, &check out this.

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The other personality types are as follows...
&Loner - Introverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
&Pushover - Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging
&Criminal - Introverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving
&Borefest - Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging
&Almost Perfect - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
&Freak - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
&Loser - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving
&Crackpot - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging

&Clown - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
&Sap - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Judging
&Commander - Extraverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving
&Do Gooder - Extraverted Sensing Thinking Judging
&Scumbag - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
&Busybody - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging

&Dictator - Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging



Link: The Brutally Honest Personality Test
(OkCupid Free Online Dating)


As compulsive as I am about understanding the universe and life in general, I found this result intriguing, because it led me to an epiphany...

I sometimes wonder if there are people who consider me a bad person (which is something everyone probably does from time to time, I guess)...and if there were, how would they explain their dislike to a neutral observer?

Until this year, I would be hard pressed to think of anyone in the world willing to give such an interview - is this ignorance, pride - or am I just failing to be Evil? (*not that it's a career goal or anything...)

Which begs the question of what would be said, of course, in this hypothetical biography...

I want people to grab me by the collar and tell me, "I don't like you, because ______________ (fill in blank)"; I often ponder two things about this:

- Will people be honest, mis-informed in their premise (thus tainting the conclusion), or just malicious in the answer?
- Would someone be willing or able to strip away all psychological layers and be so open in their thoughts - to anyone at all, much less me?

Everyone wants the world to turn out right for everyone, but the overlapping clouds of grey-area that are our lives and personalities will never fit cleanly together - it would be like trying to make a 3-D jigsaw puzzle of the Earth, out of billions of individual cotton balls, and expecting them to satisfyingly click together.

I'm going to be 40 soon.
No one has grabbed me by the collar and told me anything bad about me yet.

I guess I'm doing OK.
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As a squire in the SCA, I seem to have a good starting outlook:

The Knight
You scored 28% Cardinal, 46% Monk, 35% Lady, and 62% Knight!
You are the hero. Brave and bold. You are strong and utterly selfless. You are also a pawn to your superiors and will be lucky if you live very long. If you survive the Holy wars you are thrust into you will be praised for your valor and opportunities both romantic and financial will become available to you.




My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:


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You scored higher than 99% on Cardinal

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You scored higher than 99% on Monk

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You scored higher than 99% on Lady

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You scored higher than 99% on Knight
Link: The Who Would You Be in 1400 AD Test written by KnightlyKnave on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test
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You scored as Faerie. Faerie: Aren't you a cute little flying person? Faeries are earth spirits. They live among each element completely hidden. They have cousins called Pixies. Pixies however, are very mischevious. They enjoy tormenting other creatures for fun. Little pranksters.. I hope you never meet one. Pixies have a bad reputation for finding a creature and clinging to them until death. Faeries can be somewhat close to a Pixie, but mostly they are loving, playful, and carry with them a child-like enthusiasm for life. Hide among the pedals of a Daisy, you are a Faerie.

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Angel

75%

Faerie

75%

Dragon

58%

Demon

42%

Mermaid

42%

WereWolf

33%

What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)
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After you die...
Purgatory



After death, you will exist in purgatory. It's so-so, I heard.





Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
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Not being a natural writer and certainly not a resident of the Blogosphere, I haven't posted anything here since, ironically, one year ago yesterday. While the significance of the day is not lost, a year passed has brought the realization of all the fear I mentioned exactly 366 nights ago - both for my nation and its Government.

But I'm not posting this to exposit on world politics.

This year, my pain is personal.

For all of the blessings of healthy children, spouse and self, as well as steady work that pays fairly well for the effort, I've found myself doubly blessed with new friends, friends made more special and friends that have gone through changes both positive and enriching.

That, is where the fun stops.

In the past 52 weeks, life could not have gone much better except for me to have won the lottery or otherwise gotten myself and family's finances into the black for good, erasing the last lingering traces of the lean years of 2001-3. But the last 12 weeks has wiped out my buzz.

It's not the, "Sorry, you have cancer" bad, not "Here's your summons, sir" bad, not "
Dad, I'm pregnant" bad...but more the kind of subtle, diffuse bad of lingering doubt as to whether or not you could of avoided 'bad' in the first place.

Scenario 1:
Like any good friend, I'm willing to criticize my pals for their sake; but haste resulted in their taking it the worst possible way, and then running with it out the door.

In the span of 30 minutes, a two-decade friendship ends.

All third parties who eventually learned of it (through necessity or the offended party's choice) agreed that the reaction was overblown, despite the poor choice of timing and the delivery.

It makes me feel no better.

Scenario 2:
A very special friend and the spouse have diametrically opposed personality types; being the good diplomat, I walk the thin line, but I can no longer balance the respective emotional pull from both sides.

As anyone would correctly guess, there never should be a choice that has to be made between a spouse and anyone else...

It makes me feel no better.

I feel like the way I treat others has fundamentally changed suddenly, without a hint of effort or motive. How can you know whom you've changed into if you see the same person in the mirror? I've been reassured by all neutral observers to these incidents that it's not MY problem.

It makes me feel no better.

I share the trait with my father (one of few that I'm openly proud to bear) as being one who dislikes drama and always strives to cut through red tape, bullshit, silent screaming and other behaviors that require me to walk on proverbial eggshells. I often do so to try and lead people away from these distractions...perhaps some need them enough to resent the piper.

Amid the sadness of the anniversary and hope for the future, for the world and myself, I find myself wishing that I will post again before another full year has passed.

All things considered...if the desperation of needing to get things out of my head is the reason I type again here in the Void, I hope this blog dies out with only two posts.
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I note that this is an odd date in history to start a journal...

At first thought, I have no ties by family or friend to the events of 9/11/01, but for that as an American citizen; I feel helpless, as I did then, to do anything about the threat of our attackers or the mad power-brokers who antagonize them. Until 2008, it feels like I'm strapped into a roller-coaster in motion - I might not like this ride, I might be getting ill from it, or I might be dying of a heart attack right at this moment...but until it stops at the platform, no one is going anywhere.

I'm just closing my eyes and praying for as little damage as possible, until that moment comes.

Personally, I've been restless...but not because I'm worried; I feel as if I'm searching for the next thrill - yet I have the same fears as any husband and father would heve. I guess I'll have to be the good breadwinner, until the kids are grown - then I'll have a nice mid-life crisis ;-)

I'll type more when I'm in a chatty mood, later.
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